tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2286908986850262322024-03-08T16:33:48.729-08:00The Last Illegal Man: Guido TeunissenMy father Guido Teunissen (1917-1997) was a Romantic, a roamer, a thinker and a craftsman; a charismatic and iconoclast. A Dutchman, he hid Jews in Holland during WWII, made sandals in Mexico, fine furniture in Big Sur, fasted with Alan Watts, dropped LSD with Ernst Jünger and lived without rules, other than to be true to himself, to honor quality in all things and to honor the beauty of the natural world.Francesca Rheannonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05323922040219062613noreply@blogger.comBlogger5125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-228690898685026232.post-71041584311759018962012-02-20T09:53:00.000-08:002012-02-20T10:28:33.675-08:00Castrum Peregrini Video on YouTubeHere's a short video about the underground group Castrum Peregrini during WWII narrated by historian Erik Somers from the Netherlands War Documentation Institute (The Institute is practically across the street from the site of the group's home at 401 Herengracht in Amsterdam during the war.) It's in Dutch, but from 2:54 to 4:24, you can hear the interview with me.<br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Since 1997 I have been working on a book</span> about my father, a Dutchman, and his life in a group during World War II <a href="http://www.bevrijdingintercultureel.nl/bi/eng/homoseksuelen.html#peregrini">that was part underground anti-Nazi cell and part cultish circle </a>devoted to the homoerotic pre-war German poet Stefan George. It was based in Amsterdam, headquartered <a href="http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/a/a6/Amsterdam_-_Herengracht_401.JPG">in a stately old house on the Herengracht</a>, one of the old city’s most elegant canals, where its members distracted themselves from the chaos outside its walls by the diligent study of George’s works and the those of other great canons of European literature. </div>
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The group’s leader was a charismatic gay German writer and self-styled pedagogue named Wolfgang Frommel, who saw himself as the leader of a new Platonic academy based on the Georgean model. (The group he founded has become the "scholars and artists community" called <a href="http://castrumperegrini.org/history">Castrum Peregrini</a>.) In this photo from 1944, Guido is the one on the far right, first row.)</div>
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During the War, Frommel became friends with the great German painter Max Beckmann, who had fled to Holland when his work was condemned by the Nazis as "degenerate art." Beckmann's painting, <a href="http://de.wahooart.com/A55A04/w.nsf/Opra/BRUE-8LSVX2">The Argonauts</a>, was said (by Frommel) to have been inspired by a conversation he had with the artist, wherein Frommel's circle was likened to Jason's Argonauts of Greek legend.<br />
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Frommel had moved into one of the Herengracht house's apartments in 1942, bringing several critically endangered young Jewish men—his disciples—to hide there. My father, who lived upstairs with his wife, Miep, was drawn into the secret circle established and became a sort of disciple himself (“sort of”, because Guido was by nature an irrepressible iconoclast; he could never conform to rules set out by anyone, not even a man he esteemed, for awhile, above all others). </div>
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The experience melted down all the formative influences of my Guido’s past in its crucible and reshaped him into new coinage. He had run away from a school for wayward boys at the age of thirteen and taken up with Gypsy smugglers until achieving only a slightly more respectable position as young husband and bicycle delivery boy in Amsterdam ten years later. Prior to his induction into Frommel’s group, his passions had been American big band jazz and dancing. </div>
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As he put it later in describing the influence of Frommel’s group, “They opened up life for me. Before that time I was a bean in the pod and would never have sprouted, because I lived in the first stage of the absolute zero.” </div>
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The group even re-christened my father, tossing out his pedestrian nickname, George (it was too much like the name of the revered German poet) and dubbed him, “Guido”. He carried the nom de guerre henceforth.</div>
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Guido was a master carpenter, having spent years since a young boy hanging around <a href="http://www2.let.uu.nl/solis/lbdelta/vente/english/vermeulen.htm">the organ-building works of his maternal uncles</a>, the Vermeulen clan of Weert and Alkmaar. This came in handy for hiding young Jewish refugees in Occupied Holland. He built hiding places under floor boards, above wall cabinets, and in an ancient player piano that can still be glimpsed from the street if one looks up at a certain window in the house on the Herengracht. He built an ingenious passageway from Frommel's floor to his own, via a disused elevator, that could be employed if one needed to avoid using the stairs. </div>
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Frommel's little group made it nearly through the war without mishap. The food became scarcer and scarcer, but the Dutch Resistance made sure they didn't starve entirely. They kept their spirits high with nightly readings from the canon of European literature (heavy on George, Geothe, Schiller, Hoelderlin and Dante.) The artists in their group drew with whatever materials they could scrounge. Their benefactor, the Dutch painter and stained glass artist <a href="http://castrumperegrini.org/gisele-d%E2%80%99ailly-van-waterschoot-van-der-gracht">Gisele d'Ailly</a>, <a href="http://castrumperegrini.org/gisele-d%E2%80%99ailly-97">still alive and kicking at 97</a>, supported the group through her work.</div>
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But in October 1944, the Gestapo came to the house on the Herengracht, looking for Guido. He had been betrayed by a older woman whose romantic proposals he had rejected. She had told them that there were illegals living at Guido's address. Thanks to the hiding places he had built, neither he nor one of the Jewish refugees then residing in the house were caught. (The other refugee was questioned, but, incredibly, was not arrested.) </div>
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But Guido was a marked man. He had to flee. And so, after several months of hiding out on the edges of the front lines, seeking a way across to the Allied side, he escaped across the frigid Waal (Rhine) River on January 5, 1945. The Canadian forces on the other side rescued him as he lay nearly lifeless on the southern shore, having made it across. He ended up being drafted into the Dutch Marines and sent to their military base -- in Camp Le Jeune, North Carolina, USA. Which is how Guido came to America. </div>
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Francesca Rheannonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05323922040219062613noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-228690898685026232.post-66917155623354848592007-03-31T09:03:00.000-07:002012-01-02T15:19:40.922-08:00Reading Nan Robertson<div class="tr_bq">
<span style="font-size: large;">In 1954, Guido met Nan Robertson</span> in the Bahamas. (This was a year after my mother left him, with me in tow.) An English writer, she was living there with her husband. But she fell passionately and fatefully in love with Guido. </div>
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Two years later, she was to end her life when Guido ended their relationship -- and many blamed Guido for her death. The truth is more nuanced -- she suffered from manic depression (bipolar disorder) nearly all her life and had attempted suicide several times over the years.<br />
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When she killed herself, she left behind a memoir of her romance with my father, intense, poignant and, ultimately, searing. Re-reading it, as I am now, she captures Guido exactly: his voice, his persona. In this passage, early into the memoir, she is beginning to realize that the extremes of light and dark are inextricably knit together in his being:<br />
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<span style="text-indent: 0.5in;">Many characters lived in one Guido. The solitary hard thinking philosopher, old and wise, who has pulled the world to pieces and seen its folly. The athlete, young and enduring, despising all soft things and any human kindness. The healer who commands health and sleep. The mystic, seeing beyond the stars and into the hearts of people. The whistling carpenter, equal to any at a skillful day’s labor. The artist, offended by the least falseness or stupidity; impatient, knowing how things should be and how little they are, determined to change them, but never satisfied; appreciating, as artists do, the good worldly things, the lovely details and softness, the conviviality of confreres, scorn for the Philistine. Then the shadow of the unfairly treated little boy who wanted sympathy. Most of all, the lone fighter who could, and did, during the occupation, save the lives of many of his friends at great danger to himself.</span><span style="text-indent: 0.5in;"> </span></blockquote>
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(From Nan Robertson's unpublished memoir, <i>Against the Grain.</i>)Francesca Rheannonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05323922040219062613noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-228690898685026232.post-74986519240427420052007-03-29T20:05:00.003-07:002016-08-18T19:32:19.116-07:00Francesca Rheannonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05323922040219062613noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-228690898685026232.post-43597613627465860162007-03-29T20:05:00.000-07:002016-08-18T20:31:03.200-07:00Like God In France<div id="header">
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<i>I settled in a tiny village of no more than one hundred souls, in the shadow of the plateau where the great Provencal writer Jean Giono created a community of visionaries, all passionately dedicated to the land and its people. Over the eight months I lived there, that land and its people stitched my world back up again, through the deep succor of the relationship between humans and the natural world that embraced them. </i><br />
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<i>During my stay, instead of the book about Guido and the War, I wrote an unpublished memoir of my sojourn in Provence. Along the way, it came to me that Guido surely had guided me to the land of Jean Giono, since I discovered a way of life that expressed the values Guido held dear. Here's an excerpt from that memoir about a visit I paid to Guido's old homestead in France, where he went to live in the mid-1960's, after nearly 20 years in the New World, spent in New York, Mexico and, for the longest stretch, on the wild coast of Big Sur, California. </i><br />
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Coming to rest in Normandy, he thought he had found it. In the verdant, bucolic hills of the Orne Valley, he came upon a ruin of a tiny hamlet called La Maurie. For Guido, La Maurie was a paradisiacal oasis within what he considered the Americanized cultural desert that was post-war Europe. “The whole place together has the possibility of being a new Place de la Concorde,” he enthused in a letter to the German writer Ernst Jünger (the Place de la Concorde was where the French Revolution guillotined the heads of the Ancien Regime) “and I am not lacking in ideas about what could be…<i>if</i>! It first remains to be seen if the old wanderer has enough strength and courage for a decisive beginning.”<br />
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I had long been meaning to make the pilgrimage to my father’s old homestead. A few weeks after arriving in Provence, the call came from Nico: she was in La Maurie for one of her annual visits from the States. If I wanted to see it, I’d better come right away.<br />
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So I caught the high speed train out of Avignon, bound for Paris. Seven hundred miles devoured in a twinkling of hours. A hurried underground hitch on the Paris Metro over to the Gare d l’Ouest, then onto the regional train, whose leisured pace allowed me, finally, to watch the passing scenery. The train rumbled toward Nogent-le-Retrou, where Nico and her current husband Steve would pick me up. </div>
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From my window, the hills of the Perche were as plump and rounded as a young mother’s breasts. The landscape is dotted with petites villages of a storybook charm and medieval chateaux boasting round turrets and crenellated battlements. Meandering hedges seam impossibly green rounded hills and immense trees spread their canopies over the fat, browsing cows. It is a soft, moist land, fecund, where it can rain, I've been told, for weeks on end. But I was blessed with mild, sunny weather. </div>
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The hamlet is a complex of several 250-year-old dwellings in various states of disrepair and renovation set on three acres ranged along a hill, “protected to the north and east by woods; the view to the south and west is broad and open over a landscape which has remained unchanged for centuries,” as Guido described it. Bought in the late 60’s for what then seemed the exorbitant price of about $6,000, the buildings were variously christened by Guido and Nico: the “Goethe House” and its smaller attached sibling, the “Schiller House”, the “Hibou (Owl) House”, and the tiny nameless studio, which was Guido’s hermitage and where I set up housekeeping for my stay.<br />
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I remembered suddenly that the owl was my father's favorite animal, perhaps – the thought struck me – his totem. A yellowed postcard of Albrecht Dührer’s drawing of an owl graced a cupboard in his diminutive trailer in Holland, where he lived the last thirteen years of his life, commanding attention immediately upon entrance. A family album handed down to me by my mother contains several photos of Guido in Big Sur with his tame western screech owl, Hibou. </div>
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La Maurie received its first student, the son of a U.S. Army officer stationed in Heidelberg who had fled Communist Hungary and landed in Big Sur, California under my father's wing a decade before. Guido wrote Jünger:<br />
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It was a worthy project that was doomed from the start, shipwrecked on the shoals of no money, an uncaring world, and Guido’s intransigent personality. Ever the iconoclast – he referred to himself as “the illegal man” – he never could play the credibility game that attracts wealthy sponsors. <br />
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It became his obsession. He envisioned a kind of world community bound by ribbons of magnetic tape, whereby the wisdom of the ages would mix with conversations between friends and reportage of current events, cultural curiosities, and an eclectic assortment of music and theater to bring humanity to a higher consciousness. <br />
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Eventually, he amassed a collection of some 3,000 tapes, of which only 10% remain, dispersed among the various places he called home. On my last visit to my father, he told me that there were still tapes of his at La Maurie. I asked Nico about them and without a word she led me over to a moldering pile in a dark corner of the Goethe House. There they are, she said, pointing to a cardboard box on the floor, those are Guido’s tapes. Perhaps I might find something of interest among them. </div>
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I lugged the musty box back to the studio and commandeered a battered cassette player of ancient vintage. After his death, I had found several tapes of Guido’s among his meager estate in Holland; from this experience, I knew that what I was beginning now would be a long and wearying process. <br />
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The tapes consist of a chaotic, polyglot (French, German, Dutch, English) mixture of snatches of 20 to 30-year-old transmissions from the BBC, French music radio programs, pirated recordings of Lord Buckley’s madcap hipster soliloquies, Bob Dylan ballads, Huddie Ledbetter’s last sessions, a potpourri of jazz and classical music, and a smattering of Kafka, Melville, Grimm fairy tales, Goethe, Michel de Montaigne, and other assorted literary treasures read in Guido’s deep, measured voice, hypnotic and compelling. These are interlaced with conversations Guido had over the years with various friends and family at La Maurie, in Amsterdam, Germany or America, on his travels or on the phone. Some are quite clear; others are fuzzy and warbled, degraded by the passage of time. </div>
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“With the pen I am always only a specialist in original sin,” Guido wrote Jünger. “When I do have something to say it is never in writing. I have only living dialogue.” These words came back to me as I listened through dusk and long into the night. </div>
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I had entered a time machine. Absent the visual dimension, my senses stripped down to only one, the recordings drew me into their intimate embrace by my effort to imagine their surroundings. These audio journals opened a cleft to the past; slipping through, I became enveloped by the immediacy of long ago. Emerging through all the chaos were some gems, delivered with Guido’s aphoristic pithiness: </div>
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“Why?” someone asks him. “Because it has no roots. It’s not deep; it’s shallow. In America there’s no memory of the whole story. Americans have no concept of Adam: the American dream has no roots in the situation of man. America is really a new country in every way. It is the only country in the world that grew from its beginning to its end without really reaching its peak. It has come to decadence without ever really coming to a point of culture.”<br />
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He adds, “America cannot make it on its own. It will need the old world, and it will have to come to a point where it is ready to accept what comes from the old world.” </div>
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Yet he speaks on another tape of America being his true home – there was “more breathing space” in the States; he found “more hospitality and curiosity” there: “I saw their longing for something more, their questioning and searching for what was missing. Why were they so empty and lonely? What had gone wrong? A whole nation that has for several generations gambled everything on one thing” – by this Guido meant materialism – “no wonder, after all that one way traffic, no return, non-stop, not even allowing themselves to look around or back. Whenever we met people, the only thing I could tell them was that I neither was that greedy, impatient nor fanatic; neither did I want to settle for half. I had brought along some values, which had gotten lost in the eager fever. Ask anyone what it means: integrity, dignity, respect, trust, loyalty, humbleness, gratitude. In Europe as well as in America those concepts are misunderstood, thrown over as a weakness and a disadvantage.”<br />
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He ends, “I still love legends and fairy tales and I still believe in the art of living – that means a real thing to me, not make believe.”</div>
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La Maurie was to be the embodiment of those ideals, the new Noah’s Ark Guido was trying to build: “Things are bound to change. If there is any future at all, it will be here. La Maurie doesn’t have to be swept clean – it is already clean, ready for the new way.” <br />
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But he feared it was a quixotic quest, one to which he was not equal: “Before, an allusion was made that I was a realistic magician. That counts only however with the greatest possible limitation. I am the most minimum of all things – not only as magician, but also as <span style="color: #0000ee;"><i><u><a href="http://www.ernst-juenger.org/2009/10/anarch-and-waldganger-1.html">Waldgänger</a></u></i></span>, as carpenter, sandal maker, as Willy-Nilly philosophe and even now as baby-sitter – in short, an entirely too small Rumpelstilskin that, if he ever has a word, he has to scream it.”<br />
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Perhaps there was something in the very impossibility of his dream that lured him, ever a sailor in transit to sites lying just over the horizon. “I love the distant points,” he wrote. “It is the mast of the sunken ship – the only one that still rises above the water.” Succeed or fail, it was something he had to do. <br />
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Once long ago in Haiti, Guido had been accosted by a figure like an oracle, an “old coal-black Negro (he was even a coal-man to boot), who came toward me in Haiti’s bush, [and] posed the question of the time: ‘Watje foh??’ He had to repeat it a half a dozen times until I understood him. Although he only asked me…what I was doing there, the question remains standing. Not ‘to be or not to be’ is the question, but rather: Do we or don’t we?”<br />
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My auditory marathon was nearly done. The clock was creeping toward tomorrow and I was growing weary. On the tape, Guido was talking to a young Frenchman who was struggling to understand him. “I think you are a little crazy,” the young man says, “But you are sincere and very interesting.” <br />
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Then Guido’s words jolt me upright: “I don’t know what is going to happen to this beautiful earth we are on. Subconsciously, I have brought everything I have found of value here, not only books, but tools, too. Here you can make a boat” – he means it figuratively, as well as literally. “I am outside of everything. I am nothing. But I have my heart in it still. We are all isolated now – hypnotized into isolation by the media. We are the ‘Last Men’; what comes now is so terrible that we don’t even want to think of it.” I feel he is talking directly to me across the divides of time and death, warning me of this epoch of terror and catastrophe.</div>
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